I still Believe

Today I was contemplating sadness and grief...I was realizing that this process will continue for a long time. Long after people have all but forgotten that they had a friend who lost a baby. Long after all the talking about it and learning about it is done. Long after we have another child and have moved on with our family. After all that is done, we will still be remembering our little Mateo. He will always be our son, our child we wanted so badly. I know that, and have come to terms with it.

I was also reading about those who lose hope, who lose faith, in the face of such tragedy. I thought how sad, to lose faith when you need it the most. I stopped and thought, do I still believe? Yes, yes I do.

I still believe that God is good, that life is good. I still believe that I will never be given more than I can handle, and that everything happens for a reason. I still believe that right will always win, and good will always triumph over evil. I still believe that prayers are answered and truth prevails. I still believe in the power of love. I still believe in my health and my body and still trust in it's process.

Why? How can I believe in the face of such sadness? Because I know that without those things the world would fall apart, sadness and despair would be everywhere and darkness would have overcome. Since that is not the case, I still believe. I believe all this because Mateo was proof that all these things are true, and his death can't disprove that, because his life was too strong and too beautiful.